Love lost

I was forced to take it . I had no choice but to down this drug .
I was freely roaming as something which was yet to be created , As this force of attraction between my parents before they met . As their longings I must have been wandering . I was quite shapeless and formless and without awareness to know who I really am . Yet I was concieved to be formed by taking this new and experimental drug called life .

Government who administered this drug to me , was the community of parents , of my parents , families societies , States and nations , all believed in one thing and only one thing , procreation . Production of life from life was the purpose of life it seems . My disease was correctly diagnosed by the witch Doctors of Trivandrum thycaud medical college as this strange disease , this unwillingness to be born . With the blessings of conjugation , my freedom was eternally bound and curtailed . Thus I became a will power bound by human body .

It was a blinding nine months in the womb of the one who was willing to give birth to my slavery . From a mandatory numb sleep for nine months after I was bound by life . I was born again , amidst rich and meaningless celebration . Dec 19 of 1983 midnight , in an ambulance on the way to hospital , I was forced to say hi to air , and elements of life . Bacteria and smile of strangers infested my body with thousand pains that I never remembered . But I remembred one thing , I cried , so did mom and dad , We all cried for different reasons

I cried to see so much confusions . Confusions , and more confusions. I guess only thing which was nourished by breast milk has been my confusions. Mother knows best , She must have known my confusions. They sent me to somewhere , where they taught symbols , numbers , science , morality , and mathematics. Symbols added a system to grow my confusions .
Before I knew I was confused and was searching for answers to my confusions , Newer drugs were put on my system , Hormones , feelings , bombardment of one thousand emotions , Love , Crush , Infatuations , Attraction . For each action there is an equal and opposite love failure . Attraction for individuals of opposite sex enslaved me further to this chain reaction of slavery . Brutally addicted to life along with intoxicants !

I lived like a slave and a stranger in my very own body , Funny , that people found me sane too . May be all are insane like me . So I was sane compared to them . Insane compared to absolutes !
Einstein , the holy grail of all insanities administered atom bomb for the insanity which infested humanity like darkness. So they bombed Hiroshima and Nagasaki . So what I lived to see all this . To remember all this . To laugh at all this and what happened in the past too . So Will I live . Be born to life and its longing to enslave freedom in a human body ..

Oh brothers and sisters of human body , human mind , know this .. That we are eternal freedom bound by human frame , Human mind and The most subtle slavery of all the human soul . We are none of this ..We are that which is lost when defined . Yet I claim with all the knowledge of my foolishness when I say this . That we are this awareness that we are ! :)

Dedicated to Sheni , the one I love with all purity and heart ! this is for you buddy !