Avenues of Kottarakara

Please do read this at your own risk .. As suggested by Roy who seems to think Disclaimer should be put before reader get a chance to go through the content .This is not an intelligent blog ! I would not claim that it is beautiful either ! Yet I had to write ..Just to get it out of my head !
Recently I had a conversation with a friend of mine who incidently happened to be female . Usually I have very few female friends .They usually tend to be very offended by my very poor and unimaginative jokes and also the taste of movie and music . And yeah some do persist only due to their temprement which rival that of saints .
Unintentionally our conversation strayed into morality .She was worried to call herself a mallu seeing how her roommates were leading a life devoid of any sense of morality .They apparently came very late at night and had at times not come at all .She sounded like my grandmother in her moral lessons that she gave me that day . And her preference of Groom she said has to be a city dweller or some one who is used to city life.She said she had many friends and she would expect her husband to understand her friendship with these guys (No ironies ..sarcasm here please )
I was reminded of two people .One was Fredrich Netieshe .He was a german Philosopher .He strictly advocated a life questioning all diktats of morality .He questioned and made fun of all of our hypocritic moral and religious outlook of life . Is our love for an individual compromised to any extent just because we are with another individual . Does love demand that we be confining all our imagination,love and life with only the person we claim we are in love with .
He claimed that faithfullness was only a crude tool for sexual selection . You see tigers and lions .They have territory . They usually mate with a lioness and mark their territory with their piss .If another Lion happened to trespass into his territory he had to fight and establish . They defended their territory with claws and life .And if the other lion has won the fight , he would first kill the children of the previous lion . It was a cruel reality of feline social life . But it was a good evolutionary tool for these panthers .This ensured that only the strongest reproduced and passed on their genetic traits to the next generation . This ensured that the next generation of cubs had he strongest genes and their chances of survival was ensured by genetic superiority .
We humans ..our jealously .our possesiveness of things ..friends ..lovers .Marriage .Fidelity and very unfortunately our concept of love too is deeply rooted in this territorial pissings . We too would feel infuriated when our lovers ,friends ,wife , of the opposite sex had a relationship with another human/computer/internet friend what not !! We had fought world wars and killed several lives and ravaged civilizations itself in a feeling rooted in this territorial pissings .We felt jealous and insecure if our neighbours built nuclear weapons .We bombed their city and deprived mothers of their sons and joys just to have enough fossil fuels to foster our sense of well being .We felt jealous of all devloping countries which were advancing on the streets of capitalism . We called them a threat to national security . You see we close our eyes to all these injustices and brainlessness and call ourselves the most advances creatures with intelligence . Nietizhe questioned these very moral triats of ours and proposed free living ..Free living with all its perks and pangs .Do we really need this tools of sexual selection in among us humans with age of internet blogging.We already have enough population .People only think in terms of marriage . trust me Humans will outlive bacterias and dust too . We are now social beings .We need to ensure collective survival of a race ..not individual .We are intelligent enough to ensure that we survive without need to fight with claws and life !We could live as a collective family .Poly family ..A commune .Where sexuality is not exloited as a tool of evolution .Where an entire human life and his incredible intelligence is not wasted thinking about raising a family ..Kids ! Where humans supported each others feelings and cherished this human life they are endowed with .Where no one owned anything individually .Where everything and anything was shared and used for collective human growth . Where people did not own anything and was not owned by anything ..Devoid of religion .Devoid of nations .Living life .Enjoying some sixty odd years that we are gifted with .Without any worries . Where we cherish our planet earth .Where we would discover and marvel our forefathers .and one fine day die a life with feeling of having seen a rock show !
Another charector which she reminded me that day was the Charector of wife in the movie unfaithful . She was a liberated woman .with a really loving husband (Richard gere )Somehow mid life crisis drives her to a lover half her age .They have this affair running .And one fine day she finds her lover with another woman , She is completely broken . She confronts him ..He questions her sense of morality .She was a woman cheating her husband and she questions her lover when he is seen with another woman . Sarcasms of a modern sense of moral justice !

Of course both of them were hypocrites .Netiezshe prophesed a moral free societ yet lived life like a monk .He was even a celebate .I doubt if he was a virgin like me !! And this woman ..Liberated who upheld morality and faithfulness conveniently forget morality to cater and satiate her love ! I respect both .I AM BOTH yet a male too ! A virgin male !
No matter how modern we claim to think , we need to understand that we are deeply rooted in our territorial pissings , Jealousy ,this feeling ..this undercurrent of constant insecurity , where our sense of self is qeustionned constantly by behaviour and life of the one with whom we share our time and space with . Marriage was only a reinforcement of our hypocritic outlook of life .
I heard that man's intelligent and thinking mind is only as thin as Onion's out skin ,Deep inside of that is layers upon layers of evolutionary slumber . He was a lion , donkey and dog at times .All of his poetry , his prose and epic wars were only a sophisticated MASKS of his dull wit !
OFcourse there is always an exceptional human who thought from beyond his human frame .Who questionned this hypocracies .Who threatened and challenged this dwarf and imbecile thinking of our human leaders and religions . yeah he was last seen asking for water in a crucifix . He was poisoned ..killed tortured ..and threatened with Marriage ! At times ..kind poeple thought he was poet and honoured him/her with a booker prize

Humans ..Brothers and sisters of slumber ! I too was one of them . But when I question their stupidities ..our collective dark humour !… Well lets just say that I get my head banged against the bathroom door by my lovely room mates ! I do not make any inference here . No nothing I am implying here .I do not even say marriage and possesiveness is wrong . Only I ask you ..Implore you ..That we atleast aknowlege our hypocracies . Otherwise we would not be different from a blind monkey scratching his loins on top a nuclear weapon warhead ready to destroy life as we know it only because his wife had slept with his best friend

Humans being humans .. Read it completly only after reading the disclaimer ! I dont blame them ..I celebrate them and thank them ..To have gone through this and understood .. ! Thank you for reading this ! Please do leave your comments and views on the same ! And in case you need to bang my head against the bathroom door . Please atleast ensure that its clean ! (I mean my head )

Pranks with time

You remember me ! ? memories !!
Rose flower and its fragrance ..
First red colour that we saw .
Butterflies we caught ..daydreams
STupid lies we told and believed
Do you really remember ..first touch
Kiss ..breath and beating life ..
Our child ..Her eyes..her smile
Hands so small ..yet fingers to hold
Sunrise and dawns in our chair we saw
Sitting and holding hands ..
Together and forever you told
Hand in hand ..We walked ..towards sunrise
With our sweat , prayers and a sweet song
We welcomed tomorrow with open hand
Alas ..I forgot..
HOw can you remember tomorrow ..
For we have not met yet !
Like a child ..yearning for his first breath
I too wait in this chrysalis !
A dream ..womb of lonely slumber
Time ..Time ..My dear time !! …

Time ..It is the most funniest joker around ! Humans are yet to understand it completely . Sometimes ..I feel ..that time is just a perception .It is volatile in the presence of someone you love ..Yet freezes the second they move to Kolkotta or ..even Jorhat! Time ..had made paupers out of princes …and Time even seeded humans with love at a suited age when body is prepared the full extent to which intimacy permits .

Time means money ..Time means aging ..Time means running out of it …Time was even my Valentine ! We measured our love , experience , friendship and life itself at times ..with TIME .Been married for six years ..Says a lot about the depth of love and trust ..I guess..Been friends …Been working ..for years .. Says that you know what you are talking about ! Experience .. Time ..Memories ..Perceptions..Knowledge ! Time grew most of it .The more the time grew the more it matured it .Well ..there are always exceptions .


And in some cases ..It eroded too .Aging !! Corrosion of bikes and memories Time ..It took away too .Many lovers ..Many friends ..Time forces separations ! Good byes ..and heartbreaks too time gifts .Was time the god ! The one they worshiped in Temple of mosque ..the christian church !

Einstein ..He knew about time . He said that we could beat time if only we were to travel faster than Light (I thought I would do it the second day I bought my Apache RTR ..Yet roads and my guts were not grown to match its speed So max outs at 80Kmph )But even that brilliant scientist was swallowed and farted by time !


What did Time want …Time was a change for me ..Time was being born ..and being a child ..watching my first ..P@$N.. Time was all that and a little more . First love .. First kiss..Breath ..beauty ..All so benevolantly given by time ..Yet so heartlessly taken away too . Experiences and memories ..
Time makes us ..Moulds us ..into one thousand two hundred and ninty seven things .Yet it remould ..Demoulds..remakes and remixes our shapes and colours to a randomly decided non senses that we have no clue or control over . Time ..The enchanting mistress seen smiling at people s wrists . How little is my knowledge of you .I know your face by Jorhat .. and train travels .Yet…… I am yet to meet all three ! May be you make me meet my death before I meet you all .Yet you make me love you so much that I question not your vagaries and senselessness ..
Greatness/beauty/meaning/love/longings/content .. Is but an accident you play upon people .Your pranks you play and call it Leela ..Krishna leela ..Ramleela ..Leela of Tendulkar ! Football ..Oh god it you again my time !
Time my dear time finally you give me reasons to finish this blog too .. For I am running out of time !